Yes.
I have arachnophobia.


Arachnophobia messes with my life ALOT. I can't even sleep or stand to be in a room if there's a COBWEB in it.
It's actually pretty pathetic really, and annoys the shit out of my family.

this might turn into a wall of text.
ha.

to me, friends are what keep life going, and though it may not seem like it, i am very appreciative of them, and not for one second take them for granted. i believe friendship can come from the most unexpected places, and emotional attachment is must stronger than physical presence. i honestly can say that  some of my friends live all the way across the country, and yet i have a stronger bonds with them than most of my friends i have right here with me. things do get turbulent at times, but that doesn't stop us from being friends.

though, in retrospect, i usually get the shit stick of everything, and sacrifice my own emotions for the well beings of those around me. there have been numerous times where i have let things slip, or lied about how i actually felt, just to keep the peace amongst me and my friends. bottling it all up, and letting it out without them ever knowing. but even when it aches in my heart, i somehow feel like they're worth it. that the key people in my life are worth all the hurt and pain. they've proven to me that they'll be there for me when that can, and i think that what i'm doing is just some sort of price for such a raw and real friendship.

i unconditionally love these people, though they may not realize it, and may take it lightly when i say "i love you"
i'm actually quite serious.

i do love you guys. i wish you could just even fathom the pit of depression i'd be in without you. there are so many hard things that i've went through in my life, and you guys take me away from that and show me life from a different and less negative angle. i laugh so much more than i can even breathe while i'm around you and talking to you guys. there have been so many moments that we unspokenly swore not to share with anyone else until we were old grandmas because they're so retarded and embarassing. there have been so many tearful moments at 2 in the morning that made me know we'd be there forever for eachother. there have been so many stupid fights, but my god, it was so worth it in the end.

without you guys, i'd probably be nothing, so thanks for making me the person i am today.